it isn't the best time to think hard, or to be awake either. but i can't sleep, though i thought moments ago i was ready to rest everything of me. once again my thoughts are bewildered. and only one person can transform my emotion into something anyone wouldn't expect i will at this very moment.
i feel dizzy, maybe because the last time i put something in my mouth was almost 8 hours ago. i'm trembling, but this i'm certain not because of the hunger im feeling. it's because of my ailing heart. [yes. this blog is all about again the son-of-a-bitch endless topic of heartaches!]
Why is it that we have to shout for others to hear want we wanna say but can't even whisper it to the one we would certainly want him/her to hear it?!
im feeling like i'm scratching salt on my nearly-healed would. i don't know what to feel. it's good to hear something from him after a while. but, i really don't know now if i should continue healing myself or again turn around and forget all about the over coming stuffs. im so pathetic.
i'm not ready to hear his voice again. and im sure im not ready to face him again. i know im stronger now. strong enough to save myself from total madness. this is my way of keeping myself sane. but now i can't see the heroine in me.
i don't even know if i want to stay or not. im helpless. and i don't know if im making any sense at all. maybe im lunatic before i knew it.
PeanutButter
- Ai Marie
- Manila, Philippines
- She is the kind of girl who is always smiling and loves to laugh. If you are falling down, she will be right there to pick you up. She is the one that always says sorry, even if it's not her fault. Even if she is feeling like the scum of the earth, she will never let you know. This is the girl who is afraid of love, because she has already lost so much.
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